The Palace of the Kim Franks

I've been wanting to post this since Monday, but I got an A- on my last essay! And I also started and have now completed a "Where's Waldo" hat for Wayne. Wayne's Where Waldo hat, let's say :}. It's like I've had a giant to do list today, that has in fact been in thought for the last couple of weeks, and I just can't seem to fall asleep tonight. I knew that when Wayne's hat would be complete, I would have to start on my Mom's painting. My first attempt at falling asleep tonight left me getting up after 10 minutes to put on the back-red for the grass. I also managed to paint my cigarette piggy bank, and bring in my shit from the living room. I feel sorta bad, because I've pretty much been the only one in there for the last two weeks, so this week, I'm in my room. I will be painting, and sketchbooking and whatevering really. The next couple of things I want to do before I go to bed, if I don't become too sleepy, is to write out Sketchbook ideas for a good few pages, and then read a chapter of The Palace of the White Skunks by Reinaldo Arenas. I dropped the Anne Frank diary, but I do aim on picking it up again. I'll bring it with me to Oakville, and another Arenas book too. I will be so sad when I finish his Pentagonia or maybe even super thrilled, but still..

So I don't know what else to type except for that I have hunger. Speaking of such, it's interesting to see how in my head I'll propose restrictive diets in my head, but then two days later I say, "Kim, you can't do this, it's counter-productive to what you actually want to achieve, happiness." So then I drop it, but I don't think it's quite balanced. I wrote in my journal an hour or so ago, a list of things I want, and don't want. It was nice to see them manifest on the page.

It includes:

I DON'T WANT TO SMOKE

I DON'T WANT TO BITE MY NAILS

I WANT TO DRINK WATER

I WANT TO READ

I WANT TO DO WELL IN SCHOOL

I WANT TO EAT MORE VEGETABLES

I WANT TO EAT FRUIT

I WANT TO BE VEGAN ISH :)

I WANT OT WRITE LETTERS

I WANT TO GIVE MOM THAT PAINTING

I WANT TO GIVE MY DRAWINGS AWAY

I WANT TO GO BUY FEEDER MICE

AND I WANT TO GO TO SLEEP NOW

Of course I didn't manage to maintain my sleep status, as I am here right now.

But moreover I ended it with, "K. Love you Kim. Do what's right and be healthy." And with an arrow pointing to another scribble, "Your happiness is quite near."

Well I think that's an overall pleasing entry. It's a bit, well I don't know. I find it to be neither optimistic nor pessimistic. Well maybe it's generally upbeat, but the fact that I have to write it down.. meh, I'm not going to analyze why I wrote it down. I did because I wanted to see what I wanted and what I did not want.

Shame, there was another thing which I wanted to jot down, but instead of just staring at the ground trying to remember something, I'm going to get on that Sketchbook listing, and then the Chapter reading.

Wish me luck, and have a good one : )

p.s. Here's the hat, and my current face.

It was the first shot I took, the sound of the photo being taken startled me, so I muted it and then - voila.

p.p.s.! What I had forgotten to say was that I haven't been checking my horoscope since it read "A Special Day". For 2 reasons: 1. I want to assume that I am always being me every day. 2. It becomes depressing for me when I read "A Romantic Trouble" or something foreboding like such, and I voluntarily believe that that day will suck, and I will be a fool ever so sloppy and weak with my actions in my encounters with others, and so on. Furthermore when they're specific to a romantic partner, I don't know of whom I must substitute this, my roommate, my friends? So it's been nice not having to check it. My current home page is Knittinghelp.com which is cool. But yeah that was it. I'm learning to embrace me every day, and trying to not guess where the planets are and such.

K, much love m'love &nd G'd nyte : )