Grand Water Trine; Sun Moon Chiron

I mesh as above with Dalida. It's cool actually, it's a healing aspect - Chiron. An M.I.A., but still there, moon of Saturn.

I forgot that I knew to sing the 2nd Coheed & Cambria album. Always a pleasant surprise.

I tend to become envious of people whom are able to just RELEASE, and not give a shit. TO act like a dumbass, an emotionally unrestrained ass-face. Ripping holes into other people... We're all capable of doing this... but it's as if, it's not a part of a I'm-becoming-better-at-handling-myself lifestyle of progression.. progression? I don't know, sometimes it sucks trying to become the 'nicer' you. It's easier to just be the fucker, in those moments... but, you know it's more gratifiying in the longer run to just not.

Someone thought I was Piscies before... that was nice. And then another, Dalida actually, thought I was Virgo, not so nice, heh. But, she usually tends to guess others' signs with a miss. But an accurate enough try... yeah.

Listening to music is quite the emotional release. I suppose I enjoy NIN and C&C because they're all singing like "I hope you die now", and... well, NIN's lovely nasty verbular taste... it creates a feeling of satiety within me, you know? You know now.

There's so much more to learn, and you know what, Patience is quite the fricken virtue that is a difficult almond to swallow. I swear, about 10 times a week I end up with mad urges of just giving up, to just no longer attempt to make any attempt at whatever direction of something for that I aim. I judge others, and myself. I judge myself judging others. Ah, it's like a bike ride that's not so enjoyable as you'd think it'd be.

Wear your heart on your sleeve, it's easy I suppose with a Cancer ascendant. Most of us have got it, I'm just going to say without actually reallllly thinking about it. But, most definitely other ascendants have got this feeling too. Blah blah, venus' aswell. It's all there.

Good bye Waning September Moon, see you when you're new. 

not.

Hah! Get it... because you can't see a full moon, ahaha. Damn.

इ हद तो रन होम एंड गेट अ सिगारेत्ते.

"दविदुफ्फ्स" इस थे ब्रांड। फ्रॉम वित्हीं माय एक्षिस्तेन्तिअल बुक, आईटी स्पेअक्स ऑफ़ कोन्स्किऔस्नेस्स ओदसद्नेस...एंड थें तो बे साद। इ दुन्नो। बुत वहत इ दो क्नोव, इस ठाट इ ऍम इन फक्त एनाक्टिंग अ सर्टेन टाइप ऑफ़ सद्नेस। इ'म नोट सुरे ऑफ़ तो वहत डिग्री इ शौलडी बे एक्टिंग आउट थिस सैद सद्नेस। बुत, आईटी'स स्टील बेंग फेल्ट। दमन, आईटी सुच्क्स व्हेन ओने लोसेस। बुत इ लुक फॉरवर्ड तो व्हाटेवर ग्रेट फुतुरे बेहोल्ड्स फॉर में। जुस्त स्मोकिंग अ सिगारेत्ते, एंड हविंग सोमइ रूम ओं थे रोच्क्स। हाउ इ अफ्फेक्ट म्य्सेल्फ़। कुइते फूं लिखे.

लेम्मे जुस्त रन होम फॉर अ बीत.

ओके, वही थे फुक्क इस माय सहित तुर्निंग इन्तो अरबिक और सोमेथिंग और ओथेर.?

This is a Negation

I like you, I like how I like you.

Sept 28th, first

Good, yet not good?

All around bad, but still, not?

Wednesdays, how was my wednesday...?

Mix of all things, spiritual, organized, motivated, absurd, lovely, empty... a strange pie, lemme tell yah. More laid back. Gone with the flow. Accepted? Is this what I feel? Not accepted, but I am more receptively accepting my surroundings. Taking it in?

Quite peculiar.

What am I saying? What do I ever say? If there are words that I speak, what do they say? What do others with hearing perceive? Do they hear me, my words, or words then me? So many ways I could mumble this stuff.

All I know, is that I was full of happy aspirations last night. This morning, I was pulling and tugging on those same thoughts and feelings from last night. Come midday, loops were filling my mind. Then afternoon, gone about with some Pure-Folkish-Friends...It was calming. New, nervous & interesting. Went out. Filled with excitement. But still... at the end of the day, I experienced vomitus of all things good today. But, I let myself do such. Decided. There's no real disappointment for these things, only... acceptance still. Acceptance that some certain failure would satisfy my day, on my night's end.

Cryptic, and then not. Full in existence. With nothingness still intact,

damn I've gotta read that book.

Love? Kim?