I definitely have a personality that likes to put blame on other people. Meaning, I don't want to be doing anything wrong, so when I do do something wrong - I put it on others. What is this? De-ferrance? Reappropo-... Repositorizatoriation?
It's not necessarily accepting the air, the world, the environment, the you, the I - as is. It's saying what it's not. Mmm.. negative.
I am sitting on my couch. I have plans to go to costco today. I would love having a car on these days. I have not bused by myself to costco yet. I've been here two years. It's not so drastic. I am making up excuses as to why I'm not prepared to do this today. Don't worry Kim - you do run on your time.
I'm going to get some protein and put some back into Mareena's protein bin. Lol - in debt.
It's been nice. For the majority of Mareena having been to Whistler, Shaun has stayed over.
Wednesday I wanted to go biking, but then didn't. And so I was kicking my butt in, and I said, okay - Thursday you prep, and Friday at 5am you bike to crystal crescent. Shaun comes in on Thursday being like - let's bike to Crystal Crescent. I tell him my plans, and after some feeling things out and through, we say that Friday morning we'll go.
We sleep in past 5 on Friday, because of many reasons, but for many benefits. Having had received a good rest, having had biked in the sun, and me having had gone through the Rotary before Shaun - it was for the best. For I wanted to go out into the wee hours of the morning to avoid the cars in the rotary, so I would sacrifice a chance for me to overcome my fear of me on the road with cars. Anyways, it turned out great. I felt very proud going up the hill. I stopped the bike and looked back to Shaun smiling. I didn't say. But my smile and my breathes were very much proud and happy. We continued along.
For the bike trip - I pretty much have biking to crystal crescent and back twice a day as my daily distance. 120 km. So - I will like to do this a bit - really. At least a couple of times.
I have goals, and I feel nervous because I believe I will fail these goals. It's taking me a lot of time to get out to the bus stop. I want to take the 7. FACK
WE'LL DO IT LIVE
