Think of things that will only move your forward.
TOday I'm very close to permanently deleting my facebook. This is definitely going hand in hand with the feelings of detachment I have with some of the relationships in my immediate environment. This is for no alarm - it's just - a reorganizing of quality vs. quantity. Do I want to know what you're doing every single day? What's on your thoughts, &c. Or do I just want to .. see you, hear you, feel you. I want to know how you are. Wow. My wrists are close enough to clip off this FB.
I feel ready, in a sense that I am also .. anticipating it. It's like I know I'm going to do it - it's just a matter of doing it.
Funnily, I have two facebook accounts - humourous.
It's the photos man, the photos. Do I want to save them all??.. Mmm.. not quite. I saved one today - I will insert it at the end of this. But how many more? I don't necessarily want baggage, or give agency to photos, although I do appreciate them, and do continue to take photos. I guess I am just looking for sincerity in documentation. Not nervousness, or insecurity.
I'm not necessarily worried about being forgotten or found. I don't want fakeness to distract clear and honest interactions.
And also - isn't it strange how when we die our Facebook is still up? A friend said it is like a cyber-graveyard. But I don't want it up when I die.
You can come into my room, and open up my journals and diaries, please - go on ahead. But don't click on me from the inquisitive one way channel of your bedroom. I really don't have beef, and maybe I'm protecting myself from me in the end.
Look at this - I'm hesitating.
Here is the photo, : )
