the only way out is through

be in a relationship, knowing it will end. it's kinda like eternel sunshine of the spotless mind. i have a significant uranus influence over me, and it days any relationship I start under it will surely end by its passing, aka, march 2013. i mean, i know life goes on, and there will be better people, i tell myself, there is always a positive renewal of things, but damn, i sure do enjoy him. the horoscope thing said that they're there to satisfy a certain need or purpose and then they will be off, k, i get it. why do i listen to this stuff anyways eh. sometimes I cant remember his face. i can, but not really. i feel like his expressions shift so much, im still calculating how they relate to one head. each time i see him he looks different. i should try harder to fall asleep.